Sunday, July 19th, 2009
The last few days I have had some cramping in my lower abdomen and yesterday started to get some lower back pain. Tim and I have been trying to get pregnant for 7 months now. Last month with yet again no luck, I made the decision to just give up. I stopped tracking my cycle, deleted iPhone apps off my phone, stopped thinking about it all together, God will bless us with a child when we are ready and willing to accept it. Up until this morning, I had been feeling odd all week. Tired in the middle of the day, cramping and moodiness all signs of a period coming, right? The last two nights I have not had a good nights sleep, tossing and turning, stomach cramping and just all over hot and cold feeling.
This morning was the last straw, something has got to be going on in my body. I’ve had all the signs of early pregnancy and also the same signs of a period coming. In my sickly state I dragged myself out of bed, in the shower and off to the store to buy the one item that would either ease my mind or excite and change my life forever.
As I strolled down the isles, of course thinking every single person there is staring at me. I stood in front of the at home pregnancy tests and was baffled at the prices! 3 tests for $17.99 you have got to be kidding, but I needed a good test that I had used before and of course it was the $17.99 item. I grabbed some milk, microwaveable ribs and some mashed potato mix. We have no food in our house and I was craving BBQ. I checked out and made the drive home.
Upon arriving home I placed the groceries on the counter said “Hi” to Tim and off to the restroom I went. I opened the plastic wrapped, pink box and pulled one of the tests out. I opened the tightly sealed pregnancy test and a sponge bob cardboard rinsing cup, Lord knows how clumsy I am, I would have to use all 3 tests to just be able to pee on it correctly. After placing the white stick in the sponge bob cup and counted to 6 just to be sure, I placed the cap on the pee stick and began washing my hands. I glanced over to see that the test was working, yes I could see a bright pink line, I glanced over at my hand washing because I could already feel the disappointment setting in. I began drying my hands and looked down at the test. I couldn’t believe my eyes, I let out a gasp of air and immediately grabbed the test in my hands, opened the bathroom door, took the 9 steps to the living room, looked Tim in the eyes and said “Are you ready to be a daddy?” with tears pouring down my face. Tim jumped off the couch so fast and into my arms, we embraced each other and laughed quietly. Bandit being the Daddy’s boy immediately wanted to know what the heck was going on. In my left hand the test still there, two bright pink lines looked up at me and I felt complete. I had Tim, Bandit and a little baby growing in my belly.
I held the test for a good 25 minutes without releasing my grasp on it, just looking down ever so often to ensure that I wasn’t seeing things. I was so overcome by emotion to tell our families and wanted to call my mommy or drive to her work but knew that a doctor visit was next on our list.
So, Tim and I enjoyed the rest of our day with a 2nd showing of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Tomorrow is a new day and what an adventure we have began.
Monday, July 20th, 2009
I woke up and took my 2nd pregnancy test and again it came out positive. I went to work and called my doctor, I remember being so afraid to call them. The nurse at the doctor’s office told me that they couldn’t get me in until Tuesday at 10:00am. I was a wreck of nerves and excitement all day.
Tuesday, July 21st, 2009
I slept in that morning and Tim headed off to work. I then took my last and final pregnancy test and again it came out positive. I headed into the doctor so nervous that I think I made myself sick a few times but never got to the point of being sick. I arrived at the doctor’s office and signed in. I sat down and then the nerves really started. I pulled my phone out and text Tim, he just kept telling “breathe it will be fine”. One by one ladies were called from the waiting room and then as the last woman was called, it was only me. I literally kept telling myself to calm down and to breathe slowly in and out, in and out. Then I heard the knob twist and the nurse quietly said “Amy”. I was called into the long hallway and asked to step on the scale. The atmosphere behind the door was quite different – nurses flying in and out of doors, loud chatter coming from woman on phones, the shutting of doors and opening of them – but to me I had one thing I heard, my heartbeat. As I stepped on the scale the nurse in a calming tone said “are you so excited?” I quickly responded with “I’m so nervous, now that I am here, it’s like it’s real.” She weighed me and then escorted me to a room, a room I had been in several times since I was 20 but this time it was different. The room seemed hopeful even calming. The tools my doctor would use were all laid out and I didn’t recognize some of the items. I sat down on the examining table and the crinkle of the tissue paper always makes me laugh. There were gowns laid out on a chair where I sat my purse. The nurse took my blood pressure and then asked me a series of questions and wrote it all down. I was then asked to go into the restroom and pee in a cup. When I came out of the bathroom, I was then asked to change into a gown and then wait for the doctor to come into my room. I sat patiently and calmly breathing in and out. When Dawn arrived the nervousness washed away. I was calm. Dawn went through a series of questions with me and told me that I was 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant and that my due date was March 22nd, 2009. After that it was smooth sailing, just normal test and blood work and then off to lunch with Tim. We went to Los Dos Molina’s spicy Mexican food and all Tim and I talked about was how excited we were. Once Tim dropped me back off at his car, it was off to work. How was I going to work after a morning like that? I told my bosses as soon as I got to work. The response was welcomed and they both were really excited for Tim and I. I left work at 5:30pm and was home by 6:00pm. We immediately started calling family. We called my parents first and then Tim’s parent. My parents were so excited, it’s their 3rd grandbaby and my mom cried and you could just hear it in my Dad’s voice how excited he was. We didn’t reach Tim’s parents until Thursday afternoon and they were so excited as well, it will be their 1st grandbaby! We told all of our closest friends and all of our siblings, everyone was so excited.
Monday July 27th, 2009
Tim and I decided that we are going to deliver at Scottsdale Osborn Hospital instead of Banner Gateway. The drive is about 15 minutes closer and our doctor is 1.5 miles away. I will call tomorrow to see when we can get into our new doctor for our 2nd month checkup. Let’s talk about baby and me. I have been feeling tired and hungry but other than that, I have been feeling great. I have slept well and eating right and a lot. We have been taking weekly pictures to watch my progress; today we are 6 weeks pregnant. I am right on track with all o f the baby books I have and been feeling all of the symptoms. I haven’t been nauseous or sick yet, crossing fingers I do ok in the next couple weeks. I’ll update more soon.
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